一段感情能维持多久? 没人知道. 只能用感觉去明白. 他也许再也不会像以前. 人是会变得. 你不例外. 只能慢慢的明白原来那些曾经答应的事情也只不过是当时想抓住你的心罢了. 没什么了不起. 你也不特别. 跟他没有分别. 你们说的都只是普通话. 普通话说说算了. 恭喜你成功玩弄我的心.


* 没有你. 我一样能好好的过.

一个孤儿和一个有父母的孩子:他们有什么不同?生活在一个有和没有都没分别的环境下.你只会哭.也许你觉得我很独立.也许你认为我不需要.也许你觉得我可以一个人继续我的人生.但你忘了.也许我也会哭.也许我也会想念.也许我比任何人更加需要.可惜.你根本不知道.谢谢你增加我的痛苦.谢谢你让我变得更加自私.谢谢你让我觉得生命不值钱.谢谢你让我讨厌我的每一天.谢谢你让我戴着面具过每一天.我伤心还要笑.我痛苦只能一个人哭.
对于其他人说.也许生命是一切.但对我来说.它什么都不是.它让我累积烦恼痛苦后悔.这就是人生.


*心跳停止.哪怕是一秒也好.

如果一切都能好好安排：我们的今天也许都不会有麻烦，后悔也会从此消息．今天终算考完了．这次考试能说我没做到最好．就算有那么多外来帮助，我还是做得不好．只能希望下次会好一些．我突然很好奇高二后的生活．上了大学后会遇到怎样的朋友？是否会有特别美好回忆？还是能做回曾经做过的傻事？累积快乐？遇到一个生命中最重要的朋友？这些都是我等待已久的生活．可是却发现，长大后的生活越来越累，越来越难．．．


*如果从来都不存在．

你的人生: 也许听从就没有别的. 他们照顾别人比照顾你好. 你脸带笑容,不明白活着有什么用. 做什么都错,后果从来只有痛. 做什么都难,也许还得不到快乐. 快乐又有什么用? 当难题来都身边,当伤心绕着你走,你要从那里解决? 你要如何面对? 也许永远保持不快乐, 面对困难时还容易一些. 现在你面对考试, 为了只是想拿好一点. 至少你不用历史从演要别人帮忙也不用他们来负担. 你为他们要求平安,健康,好运,却忘了自己. 如果你从来不存在,他们是否是这样的一个人? 人被造出来,没被告诉活下来是为了什么. 上帝给了我们自由选者自己要的生活. 可是那么大了,就算什么都有了,活在这个世上,是为了什么啊? 我只想不再流泪的过下一秒. 不管是去那里. 我要的是平静,没有比较,没有讨厌的生活,就算没人生目标,我要的就是那么简单.


* 当你勇敢地说出一切时, 要明白接下来的只有两种情况会发生,要不得到快乐要不就失去一切.

After the June's holiday ended, I am so busy. Busy as in no time to do my revision and sleep! Project, concert, homework and tuition! arhg. Kinda tired about it. I hope it will end faster cause I really need to sleep like 16hours? Well. When physics class, teacher help us to do our homework schedule and make me feel so stress. Still left 18weeks? Hmm.
Ahh. I wish I can control myself not to press it. =')

Anyeonghaseyo. Jey irenme Ariele imnida. Last day of June's holiday! Well. This holiday was not that bad at all. And I know something which made me kinda happy. Fast fast finish DingDingDongDong. Well. Tomorrow going to get ours exam paper and 100% I will feel sleepy in the class. Wish me luck and don't cry. Tah~


* 一个小熊天天和他的大熊见面. 那是不是个问题?

Omo. One week had gone. Left one week of holiday. But not that good too. Need to wake up early in the morning to school for choir practice. Hmm. Teacher did ask us to do our revision. BUT! I didn't and only study drama =X June's here and so SPM left 5months plus. God bless me. And I'm a bit scare about this time exam's result. Cause parent are ask to go to school to take our report card. I know dad won't scold. But still. Don't want him to disappointed. =(


*Holiday = Eat Eat Eat = Fat! =D

Currently watching 49days. I wonder why everytime when I'm watching a drama. The story line always connected to my life. I'm crying again. Human. Complicated animal. Lying is what you been doing? Did you ever really mean it? Or I'm just too stupid? If only you can disappear and never exist in this world. How nice?

*Please leave. As soon as possible.

I'm glad that imma still alive. After 2 weeks exam, I'm actually still feel the stress. The first time ever in my life, i woke up in the middle of the night just to study. Kinda feel sad about it. I never do this, cause I need to sleep for a long time just can recharge my energy. Luckily there's a 2 weeks holiday for us. So, I'm just here to say hello to my blog! Tata!

当明白这样做, 会让你在下一秒做出让我伤心的决定. 我接受. 我继续. 也许只希望你遇到更好的. 因为我无法真正的接受一切, 也不会带给你每一天的快乐. 因为我无法说服自己要去相信, 所以我选择了跟你吵架. 我不懂如何接受, 也不懂如何相信. 当每一件事都无法让我冷静, 也不能从来. 一件曾经那么甜美的一件事, 为何会忘掉? 一件曾经那么伤心的事, 到如今还是一样会流泪吧? 也许..

*I didn't know then Because I didn't know how to love Because I didn't know how to hold you warmly I didn't know then Because I didn't know how to love I came to leave you alone

What a nice day I got? I miss the chance! The only chance in this week I can enjoy my day with my friends at somewhere out there. How sad and stupid am I staying at there which everytime I step my foot in it and feel like wanna run away from there? I cry I cry I cry! Just because things happened and yet I'm sitting there doing nothing. Others complain. I can't do anything. I know. A lot of complains from you all. Sorry. I can't help! I'm nothing. I know nothing about it. I'm always the last one who know everything and get upset and angry about it. Not because I don't want to care. I have no power to talk anymore. Just let it be and I'll leave.

April is here, SPM left few months and I'm stress.
Busy life. 1m1s program started, co concert is coming soon, same goes to choir competition and also mid term exam. I'm so tired. Just for few minutes, can I be alone? or even disappear from this world. But not going to happen, I still need to move forward and continue to do Bio notes!
The best thing about this week and last week was watching badminton competition. =)


*You will never understand even if I tell.

時間回到以前. 還記得自己微笑的時候. 記得把你的書包裏東西全都拿出來. 還記得那一個飲料. 回憶就是這樣的讓人懷念.
時間來到現在. 記得的好像沒有. 也許這一切已經變成了習慣. 讓我不懂得如何要去珍惜. 很想不讓自己那樣. 但還是無法不那樣.
也許有些人必須承受某些痛后才能感受到之前的好. 這樣也許會變得更好.

*好想永遠呆在那角落..

就算有多開朗
那微笑是假的
就算裝不介意
只是不想煩了
做的每件事情
只是命中注定
那麽得不爽快
傷心也有季節
快樂卻不長久
關心也是暫時
因時間不等人

*Dang! This holiday SUCKX!

看啊看,我們有手牽手..
想啊想,時間都不等人..
我們的路走到了這裡..
分開的路而走到更遠..
更遠更遠后非常想念..
舍不得也要放開雙手..
等以後也許會在一起..
尋找你的美麗新世界..
也許會更加自由自在..

*有時會有點奇怪. 害怕那些感覺不見. 煩了很多東西. 什麽都不想要. 笑容也漸漸地變得很陌生. 我很想消失.

夢想一個又一個的實現. 我很快樂.
這些快樂無法忘掉. 我想暫時呆在童話世界裏,有你陪著我玩.
現在才知道,原來身邊還會有人來陪. 一個人也不怕孤單.
我們還是朋友. ♥
*等待.. 也許會有好的結果..

Happy Birthday! Gah! Never expect anything! But very happy and nice! Aha. First of all, thanks to all for wishing me "Happy Birthday". Then sang birthday song in class. Thanks. Surprise big bear from CML Shnwei And DoDo. But too bad XD I got another BIGGER BEAR from Terence Tan! So Aha. I'm hugging it everyday. Thanks Sophie who lied that she didn't bought anything for me! Aha. Jess who do a special book for me! Sweet! Love it much! And YikJia and Wen Le who prepared the special "tabung". Inside full of wishes! : Guan Ping, Lai Bui, Sandra, Hui Ping, Pae Yii, Ellen, Emily And many more!! and people who wish me through phone! * Forgive me if I didnt mention your name here! But I want to thank all of you for everything! Then I do enjoy my night with Terence, Sze Mun and Foo ! Thanks for the ice-cream cake! Kakakaaaa and Hui Ying who appeared not more than 5minutes? Aha Thanks for the bear too! Thanks Thanks Thanks! But I won't thank You! Bad Guy!

* Love Yahhhhhhh!

Not looking forward on this Saturday. Not really got the mood to celebrate it. Maybe is getting boring since nothing really special about Birthday. Aha. Getting older is what we got and then life still continue as usual but maybe not too. Birthday wish? A cake will make my birthday better. Birthday wishes from everyone. Specially you. Good result in everything. Family always in a good condition and happy always. Aha.

*Actually, I don't know.

時間一直一直地走,永遠都無法停下來. 新的一年,新的開始. 每一年的挑戰都不同. 今年的確壓力. 也許過不久那一條路將單獨繼續地走下去,但沒關係. =) 新的一年必須堅強的面對! 快樂得面對! 也謝謝你! 讓我夢想實現. 就算是轉發也好. 什麽都好! =) 看著那個短訊. 嘴角自然向上. 因結局已經有了. 新年快樂 =)